Always be my baby

依稀记得，那天，她跟我说了。。。。。。

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

终于，句号。

终于，看着他的背影， 他了解，从今后，他可以好好的想想他自己，想想他的未来。

情感画上了句号。终于，他可以放下潜意识里的忧心；终于，他可以从新寻找属于自己的幸福。

怀着一颗平静的心，看着以后幸福的自己，他带着微笑，进入了梦想。

张学友 - 最后一封信

       静静地　静静看你熟睡的身影

　　请相信　这是我一生最难的决定

　　不曾说过　有一天会离开你　

　　你一直以为我还是你的

　　留给你　留给你最后一封信

　　从今后　我要好好的想想我自己

　　为你付出的从不说可惜　

　　现在的我　有一颗平静的心

　　我爱你　虽然我已经放弃

　　我爱你　伤心不能再继续

　　我爱你　虽然心已经远离

　　我爱你　岂只一句话就说得清

　　要不是你学不会去珍惜　

　　又怎么会是这样的一个结局

　　我真的真的不怨你　

　　因为这是我自己　自己的决定

雙魚。複雜。矛盾。

http://www.stargogo.com/2010/08/12_9422.html


雙魚男一直沒有寫。因為很難寫。難寫在於2點。1、是雙魚男的基本特徴與雙魚女沒有特別大的區別。2、是雙魚座的特徴非常符合女子特徴，如果放在男人身上勢必再次形成新的矛盾點，加上雙魚本身就是具有兩面性，使雙魚男比之雙魚女更加矛盾複雜。


這是個具有極大的精神世界的星座。這在雙魚女那裏表現出了極其和諧的結合，符合了女生的溫柔細膩。而這在雙魚男這裡則形成極大地矛盾與抵觸。作為男人，無法長時間沉浸在自怨自「哀」的精神世界中。所以，大多數雙魚男都極力抑制這種特徵的表現，他們大多數時候都在刻意掩飾，所以，雙魚男比雙魚女有著更多的複雜面具。但是，這畢竟只是掩飾，一旦他們需要雙魚的精神世界的時候出現，依然可以表現出雙魚應有的驚人水準。所以，即使偽裝的極其完美的雙魚男，在直覺洞察和想像力上也絕對無人可及。


然而，其他的雙魚特徴，在雙魚男這裡變得有些不同，最為顯著的是，情感豐富和理想主義觀念。這兩條是雙魚座的基本標簽。情感豐富的女人必然女人味十足，而情感豐富的男人則不是什麼太好的事情，因為這直接導致一個嚴重的問題，多情。


是的，我們的雙魚男人們，絕對是12星座最多情的男子。但是，請注意，是多情，不是濫情，更不是花心。這一點請務必理解。多情在於他們比之其他男人更懂得愛情是什麼。更懂得珍惜共同的記憶，共同的快樂。所以，他們不會輕易忘懷任何過往。這點上，讓雙魚男收到的褒貶不一。當然，我們是可以想像這樣的特徴會造成怎樣的結果。這是個很難說明白的事情，他們只是學不會放開手。忘記了愛情從來都是自私而不可允許他人分享的東西。


關於雙魚男的理想主義則很有意思。雙魚女的理想主義多集中在情感方面，在對於其他現實問題上，卻基本能冷靜的面對。而雙魚男則更有遁世的傾向，幾乎所有方面，他們都選擇了一種逃避殘酷現實的應對，因為理想主義的幻想，不象細膩傷感的精神世界那樣讓雙魚男抵觸，所以，在大多數的雙魚男身上，關於理想主義的色彩可以輕易找到。其實，我覺得人感性一點，理想主義一點並沒有什麼不好，這讓人活的更有情趣，更懂得浪漫。

强颜欢笑，掩饰了内心的孤寂和无奈。

若干年前,若干年后 ： 上半段 - 回家

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNOfhCCiDTI

若干年前。

那一年，他选择了离开，每有留下太多的理由。只是简单的一句，我想去寻找新的突破，他就离开了那间家。

她还不明白，为什么他离开了她。她以为，它给的很多，她以为，她付出的很多。她说，我给的那么多，我那么珍惜你，你为什么离开？他说，我要的，是平平淡淡的在你身边，不是排山倒海的压力。

她不相信这是压力，他不相信这是珍惜。

他离开了，没有他的电话，没有一份信。她震惊了，每天晚上都守着那间家，就希望会有那么一天，他回心转意时，会倒回来。

她好爱他，觉得她会离不开他，但，可惜，她却丢了他，没有在最紧要的时候抓住他。

深夜，在昏黄的灯光下，回想起当年的点点滴滴，她的泪却慢慢的掉下来……

深夜，在漆黑的脚落里，他歇斯底里的喊了出来：回家，回家，我需要你；回家，回家，马上来我的身边……

深夜的静，是那么的凄凉，滑过泪水的脸庞对她说，别再哭，就让他走，再多痛苦的等候，相信她也能承受。

深夜，她慢慢的闭上了眼睛，想让自己在这静静的夜里满满的睡去，让自己在这静静的夜里不再留恋。而他却在这时候一遍一遍的出现在她的梦里，出现在每个噩梦的边缘，让她好想一挣开眼就看到他。

她好想拥有再一次的机会，对这他说，别说不会有结果，永远永远，别说分手，让他们白头偕老，让他们一路一起走下去。而他，又怎么能够，在这时候，就这样的放手，一去不再回头，让她无助的面对着这纷纷扰扰的世界。

一遍又一遍，她嘶喊了出来：回家，回家，我需要你；回家，回家，马上来我的身边……

想了很久，我到底凭什么资历来接下这个任务。真的，我不懂。

Moving out to the new office

Completed the moving of the stuff to the new office.  Looking out from the office, the scenery is still the same as the old office (as they are of the same row), but I do get a different feeling.  Being in the office of the Head of Discipline, and the office as a normal lecturer is rather different.

I do feel relief now, a bit.  I know there are still tonnes of works to be done, even I am a normal lecturer.

Anyway, I am welcoming my 2012 in my new office, 5C1-45!

Wish me luck!

还是朋友

我傻傻大步的走过你的身边，也知道不必難過， 因为在生命旅程中，我知道，總有人動容，也會有人像你急著上樓。

决定了， 我不去想昨天的夢, 我決定今天好好的過, 我想，分開各自走的话， 你可以享受你的自由，我也看到我的明天，你的未來想怎樣別來問我，因为， 我不知道，我也不想去了解。

從今後，我想做什麼就做什麼，因为我知道，我的生活将会是我一個人過。而你也不必回頭問我想什么、做什么、要什么；还要假裝溫柔，又不知所措 - 看透了你那张假面孔。我知道， 也很肯定，总有一天，我相信相信你會懷念 那個傻傻的我， 还有那幅淋著大雨等在你路口的画面。


所以，我想，还是忘了吧， 忘了那段曾經我們手牽著手說著以後的时光。
这么多年了，面对一次又一次的骗局， 我想，算了吧，你的承諾對我來說就像氣球，飞呀飞的就飞到天上，什么都看不见了。我累了，也不想去追究了。

也许，等那天你再真的感到我們認真愛過，细细回味我们在一起的时光，开始感到后悔了，但這些又算的了什麼， 看开点吧， 我们還是朋友。


我不去想昨天的夢，就算他又多美多甜，因为我決定今天好好的過。昨天，我与你经历了人生的酸甜苦辣，但今天，我们将分開各自走。 所以，你可以享受自由， 而且你的未來想怎樣別來問我。

说过了，從今後想做什麼就做什麼一個人過，你不必回頭問我、假裝溫柔、不知所措。有一天相信你會懷念那個傻傻的我，淋著大雨等在你路口。忘了吧—曾經我們手牽著手說著以後；算了吧—你的承諾對我來說就像氣球；等那天你再真的感到我們認真愛過，但這些又算的瞭什麼—還是朋友。

雖然有時氣你没有目标，没有远见，从不把我的付出看在眼里；但下一刻又傷痛，因为看着你的孩子，看着你的伤口，看着没有人来扶你一把。但我还是想说，你不必擔心我，我不爭氣的淚水就讓它流，我们做朋友也許会幸福的多。

最后一次告诉你，说过了，從今後想做什麼就做什麼一個人過，你不必回頭問我、假裝溫柔、不知所措。有一天相信你會懷念那個傻傻的我，淋著大雨等在你路口。忘了吧—曾經我們手牽著手說著以後；算了吧—你的承諾對我來說就像氣球；等那天你再真的感到我們認真愛過，但這些又算的瞭什麼—還是朋友。

I Dreamed a dream

在回家的路上，突然看到一幅曾经在我梦想中出现的景色.心里震惊的一阵：在英国的那四年里， 我一直梦想着这样的生活，为什么现在的我，却被工作压得喘不过气来?

连续冲了一个月，突然发现到自己离开曾经梦想中的生活好远，好远。。。




There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in times gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung
No wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he'll come to me
That we'll live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed
The dream I dreamed.

Winter Snow Before the Spring Sun Take 1 - I Miss You

To the friends who suddenly leave my circle of life - hope you are doing good in now!


I Miss You

Sha-la la la la, Sha la la la la.
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your ar ar arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I Never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la la la la
I miss you

You used to all me your dreamer
And now that i'm living out my dream
Oh, how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true the time is flying by too fast

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though its different now
You're still here some how
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la la la la
I miss you

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la la la la la

I miss you
I miss you're smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here some how
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la la la la
I miss you

Happy Mother's Day

To all the mothers in the world - Happy Mother's Day!

Song for Whatever - No Worries

In my darkest days in my PhD road, this was the songs that I used to keep listening to motivate myself up.  Before I could receive my degree in my mortarboard, I knew that I had to walk alone, in a road that I didn't know where it ends.

I was lucky to have some friends around me that we could keep supporting each other - Grace, Lee, Yeaw Chu, Dinan, Pam, Rock, Rob to the later stage, Rupesh, Xiaxin and Carl, and many more.  Thanks to them for accompanying me to walk through that time.

I was always telling myself - no worries, these days will soon be over, and the new days will come soon; just keep holding on for a while.

So, friends, if you are in the darkest days in your life today, trust me, no worries, the days will soon be over and you'll be stand up again.

NO WORRIES - SIMON WEBBE
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KkB6DNRgXYs)

I just know your life's gonna change
Gonna get a little better
Even on the darkest day
I just know your life's gonna change
Gonna get a little further
Right until the feelings change
So, is this how it goes?
Think you've come this far with nothing to show
That ain't so, no
You don't see where you are
And if you don't look back you know you'll never know

Cause you think that you've been living, just treading water
And waiting in the wings for the show to begin
But I always see you searching
As you try that bit harder
Getting closer, oh yeah, to the life you're imagining

[chorus]
(I just know your life's gonna change)
Maybe not today, maybe not today
Some day soon you'll be all right
(I just know your life's gonna change)
Don't turn the other way, turn the other way
Feels like luck is on your side
(Just wanna live)
No worries, no worries
(Don't wanna die)
No worries, no worries
(Fight through the lows)
Say it for me, say it for me,
(And take all the highs)
We all need somebody
(Yeah we can sink)
No worries, no worries
(Or can you swim)
No worries, no worries
(Or walk on out)
Say it for me, say it for me,
(Or jump right in)
We all need somebody

So, baby keep drifting on
Your endeavours ain't just selfless wasted time
Seek and find, yeah yeah
You're not that far from what you've hoped and wished for all along

Cause you think that you've been living, just treading water
And waiting in the wings for the show to begin
But I always see you searching
As you try that bit harder
Getting closer, oh yeah, to the life you're imagining

[chorus]

I just know your life's gonna change
Say it for me, say it for me
We all need somebody

Mok and Toong's Wedding

Attended Mok's Wedding yesterday, and it was a wonderful day for me, as well as for my friends.

Having knowing him for 18 years, this was really an event that both myself and my friends were looking forward - we looked forward for the wedding reception, we looked forward for the gathering, and we looked forward for the great time that we were going  to have.

Sure enough, we had a great fun these two days.  Early in the morning, as any other wedding family will do,  sisters were at the bride's house, and brothers were at the groom's house.

The process of picking the bride up is, to me, the most enjoyable part of the day, as we all were really tricked by the sisters with flour, lemon + apple cider juice, bitter gourd juice, condense milk, chili biscuit, leg wax and so on.  Obviously these stuff doesn't sound funny, but I am sure we really enjoyed this.

The small gathering in the afternoon at the Heidi and Train Station was the great one that filled with never-ending jokes.

The Wedding Dinner reception was also a great event, where again we worked as a team to get it done.... From the registration to the MC to the "wine servant" to the technological support to the photographer and video shooter, we really make a good team in getting the event done.

I can't wait for the photos to be shared, and also looking forward for the next round of gathering, that we can continue the madness of being together.

To Ivan, Lai Tee, Keat Chew, Ching Ching, Tan Kiat, Jun Hong, Jimmy, Kok Kit, Jenny, Kah Woon, Zi Xean, Fiona, Chee Wei, Sua San, and many more, thanks a lot for the good memories, and let's hope for the many more.

Of course, to Mok and Toong, congratulations and may you be well and happy for the rest of the days!

 

People asked me, "So, when's your turn? " I replied with a smile - when the time comes, it comes.  Now let me enjoy my life with my first wife - my works!

普照寺的回忆

那天回家，爸爸就说要到普照寺看看几位老人家，一家三口就浩浩荡荡的出发了——还是老样子，说走就走。记得还有一次妈妈曾向我们说过，“跟你爸爸出门，要告诉你们我们要到哪里都是没用的，因为他的主意随时会更改，要上了汽车，开始往那个方向出发时，我们才可以肯定我们是要到达那个目的地。”

也让我想到有一次爸爸说要带我们到波德申海边玩，当时在吉隆坡姐姐家的我们都很高兴，还把救生圈、海边旅行的必需品搬出来，还充了气。一开车，爸爸就建议先去拜访在鹅麦的大姨妈。好了，全家到了鹅麦，拜访了大姨妈， 这时，爸爸竟然说，既然都在这里了，不如我们上云顶吧！可以想象，那一次，全家人，带着去海边的玩具（更别提那些已经充气的救生圈），穿着到海边的衣服，到了云顶。自从那次起，每当爸爸说要到什么地方，我们都会尽量准备各式各样的物品，以防目的地突然间又被爸爸换了……

回到普照寺，看了看，改变了很多。主要的是后面那座停工了17年的建筑物在次的发出敲敲打打的建筑声。

看到一半，妈妈走过来了，说道：“很多东西都没有了。”

是啊！我都忘了，曾经有一个戏棚。 就在寺的左边。喏，看，就在那个蓝色桶的的那个位子。

那几年，应该是我还在念一、二年级时吧。每当十二月初八，就会有布袋戏，当爸爸妈妈在忙着时，我就会过去看。虽然不懂他们在演什么，但反正闲着也是闲着。后来，布袋戏没有了，就变成放桌椅的杂物室，后来，什么时候被拆除的，我也不知了。

看着另一边，妈妈又说话了。

“那棵菩提树不在了。”印象中好像有听过有棵菩提树，但是不记得了。

然后，妈妈又接着说，“那一年，我们就在那里摆了素宴，应该是为普照寺筹款吧。那天，刚下过雨，你就在那里玩泥巴，你爸爸就很生气的把你赶回家，你还自己坐巴士回家的，然后， 我们也没有想那么多，知道你在家里会自己主东西来吃，就没有管那么多。到了第二天，问到你吃什么，你就说‘吃面包啰’。我就说，你不会自己煮面吃吗？你就答了一句‘都没有么煤气，叫我怎样煮？’后来才发现你爸爸把家里的煤气都带出来了……”

走进里面，看到那个“池塘”已经被封掉了。

那时的我很喜欢在那里玩水——小孩子嘛。下雨时，就会看着屋顶的水流到这个水池里。

突然发觉，原来我的童年也是多姿多彩的。

賀歲新春聯歡晚會

姊姊家附近的自願警衛隊在村里的小學開了一場賀歲新春聯歡晚會, 邀請了村里所有的居民觀看． 　 除了邀請到知名藝人來助興，籌委們也找到的贊助商來贊助這次的演出，而到場的村民都有機會嚐到好吃的沙爹、炒米粉、咖哩雞等美味的食物． 聯歡晚會開始的時間是傍晚７點，但村里的人過了７點才慢慢的從家中步行到學校的禮堂．華人對時間的觀念和拿捏，唉！ 到了約８點，節目開始了． 一開始，就有了幾位從所謂的外地來助興的歌唱小組，跳了一支「歌劇魅影」 （The Phantom of the Opera）．．．．一看就覺得好像少了什麼似的．細看之下，原來舞步節奏和音樂的節拍有些問題，歌曲是一支節奏很快的音樂〈當然也是「歌劇魅影」這支歌〉，但舞者的舞步卻是慢節奏的舞步．．． 然後，在看看他們的動作，就更加覺得他們沒有研究舞蹈的背景．提到「歌劇魅影」，大家都知道主角是面具──問題就出現在這裡．他們所用的面具是那種只把眼睛遮起來的那種（ｈａｌｆ　ｍａｓｋ），但大家都把面具“戴在”鼻子前面．．．　給人一種感覺怪怪加上不專業的感覺． 跳完了舞之後，就開始唱歌了．他們的歌聲也終於為他們挽回了少少顏面． 他們的聲色還真的是不錯，特別是那個唱歌的男生，聲音特別雄厚，音色也很棒．我還在想，如果他參加了學校的唱歌比賽，我一定給他很不錯的分數，他的音色比那時的參賽者好得多．那時的參賽者根本沒有比較的份．但聽他的聲音，他是夠資格出唱片的了． 看了看，除了他的台風有些遜色之外，他的音色是很不錯的；除了舞蹈有點濫之外，他的歌曲演藝是很棒的． 想到，每個人都是公平的，有些人勝在外型；有些人勝在聰慧；有些人就有特別的才能．就沒有見過有那一個人是什麼都沒有的．所以啊，當你被人家罵笨時，不代表你是一無所有的，看看自己有沒有什麼過人的優點吧．

沒那麼簡單

久違的黃小琥再推出專輯, 聽著聽著,還覺得不錯的,唱著唱著,還把現代人的愛情模式給唱出來了.

黃小琥-沒那麼簡單

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴 尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛 總是不安 只好強悍 誰謀殺了我的浪漫 It's not so easy to find the best lover to talk to Especially after seeing so much betrayal incidents Always feeling disturbed hence pretending to be strong But my romance has been obliterate 沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看 變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半 不愛孤單 一久也習慣 不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管 It's not so easy to love without caring anything Being realistic may have its pros and cons Despite hating lonesome but getting used to it gradually There is no need to worry about and be interfered by someone 感覺快樂就忙東忙西 感覺累了就放空自己 別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定 不想擁有太多情緒 一杯紅酒配電影 在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡 Feeling happy, then be on the run Feeling tired, then relaxing oneself Don't care about others' words but but making decisions by oneself Don't like to be too emotional Watching movie with a glass of wine Turning off the mobile phone at Saturday night and lie in the sofa comfortably 相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷 什麼都不懂的年紀 曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經 想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶 It's not easy to love truly and deeply as everyone has their own tempers Having undergone the age of daydreaming Staying in a peaceful life rather than going through ups and downs It's not easy to obtain happiness So it's easy to make people indulge Showing the truest heart in the most innocent age Owning the greatest pleasure Missing someone is the most grievous But it's the deepest moving memory http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4_hhPM-6RU&feature=related

Derita Merindu

I was on my way back from my outstation in Penang. While tuning around the station to find a station with clear reception, this song was played in the air. There were many friends who don't like to listen to Malay radio station, as they are not able to appreciate the style, but perhaps this will help to change their perception to the Malay song. To me, this is definitely a great song, from the lyrics to the rhythm. So, have you changed your mind? Derita Merindu (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krQvliMY0JE)

(Rap) Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal Bagaimana nak kekal Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap) Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa Bagaimana hendak ku lupa bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu Jikalau setiap hari merindu Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia.. Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x) Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap) Seandainya kau berada di depan mata Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu Apalagi memandangku Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan.. Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap) Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu Baru kau tahu derita hatiku Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu Baru kau ingat derita diriku Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku Apa gunanya bahgia Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Another Sunday, Another Thought

Another Sunday that I have a little time to sit down, and listen to myself. It's been long time since the last time that I am sitting quietly, listening to me telling my story, and listen me talking about my life. While reading my blog, there was a comment posted by Vanessa Arias , that she mentioned that she worked in Headingley Experience too. What a coincidence! Although I may not be knowing her directly, but I feel excited, as we worked at a place that had given me so much sweet memories! Was attending Jenny's Wedding yesterday, and met Yap Ping, Hamster, Jessica, Nelsson, Miao, Wang Yi, Kie Wei, Ai Ling and Kyaw Moe Tun Naing there. Yap Ping asked, "when was the last time we met?" "8 years ago, at the airport, when I was about to leave for UK," I said. It was a long time since we last meet. Also, it was going to be a long time since I come home from UK. It's going to be 3 years in December. Just wondering, are the people in UK doing good now? How's Headingley Experience now? Cricket season is over by now, I think. Hope that the Leeds Rhino is still the best team in the country. It was 2003 when I first join Headingley Experience, if I am not mistaken. Starting as the back of house member, where I met the best supervisor (yes, still, in my ranking, the best supervisor), Jason. Then went to the front of house once or twice, and then work with Liz, my the other boss, which is really good to me too! November 2006 I filled my leave form, and was rather sad to see that I was going to leave the stadium for a long long time. Now there are many occasions that will reminds me of the life in the stadium, such as songs that always been played on the radio during the match nights, a western cusine that I see in Malaysia, crickets, rugbys, even seeing my students going to Leeds. Yeah, one day, one day I'll be standing at the stadium, and waiving my hand, saying "hello!" to everyone (perhaps "hello motto") to Jason. Hope you are doing good - People in BOH (Jason, Ian, Andy, Jan, Joe, Sam...), in the office (Liz, Shaun, Janice, Fiona, Julie, Ellie, Tony...) in the Kitchen (James Bradley, Steph, Phil, James Key, Jamie, Barney......) and in front of house (James Haigh, Andy, Feona, Louise, Phil, Lydia, Rob, Tom, Emma, Adam, Jon, Natalie, ....) and many many people who is still, or who was in Headingley Experience. credit of video: xXYuNPoOXx

玫瑰的回忆

从芙蓉活动回来，收音机播出了一首很久没有听到，又很喜欢的一首歌——the rose。 Bette Midler 先把这首歌唱红，然后台湾的齐豫和林忆莲也翻唱了这首歌，到最后Westlife 又再次把这首歌唱得冲上英国排行榜的榜首。还是喜欢Bette Mdiler 的版本，可能是先入为主的关系吧？ 对Westlife唱的版本印象比较深，因为当时我正收拾包袱准备回国，有时会与Nick 一起在星期天去郊游，然后再回家时，车上一定是播着Radio 1 的排行榜节目。就一直听，一直听，到我回到马来西亚为止。 喜欢这首歌的歌词，喜欢它那浪漫的旋律。

Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed Some say love it is a razer that leaves your soul to blead Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

像疯了一样

想知道你是否还是一样

有没有学会比较坚强

我快乐的孤独　

有失望

你可曾在意当时我也是这样的忧伤

想明白为何对我那么冷淡

有未来　故事会不会是这样

我知道你不会再回头看

我还是一直以为

一直以为有希望

像疯了一样

我想你就会心伤

我多么爱你

却难逃你的魔掌

像疯了一样

我想你就会心伤

你让我多么难堪

却还是一样把我伤

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blCLPebd-kE