賀歲新春聯歡晚會

姊姊家附近的自願警衛隊在村里的小學開了一場賀歲新春聯歡晚會, 邀請了村里所有的居民觀看． 　 除了邀請到知名藝人來助興，籌委們也找到的贊助商來贊助這次的演出，而到場的村民都有機會嚐到好吃的沙爹、炒米粉、咖哩雞等美味的食物． 聯歡晚會開始的時間是傍晚７點，但村里的人過了７點才慢慢的從家中步行到學校的禮堂．華人對時間的觀念和拿捏，唉！ 到了約８點，節目開始了． 一開始，就有了幾位從所謂的外地來助興的歌唱小組，跳了一支「歌劇魅影」 （The Phantom of the Opera）．．．．一看就覺得好像少了什麼似的．細看之下，原來舞步節奏和音樂的節拍有些問題，歌曲是一支節奏很快的音樂〈當然也是「歌劇魅影」這支歌〉，但舞者的舞步卻是慢節奏的舞步．．． 然後，在看看他們的動作，就更加覺得他們沒有研究舞蹈的背景．提到「歌劇魅影」，大家都知道主角是面具──問題就出現在這裡．他們所用的面具是那種只把眼睛遮起來的那種（ｈａｌｆ　ｍａｓｋ），但大家都把面具“戴在”鼻子前面．．．　給人一種感覺怪怪加上不專業的感覺． 跳完了舞之後，就開始唱歌了．他們的歌聲也終於為他們挽回了少少顏面． 他們的聲色還真的是不錯，特別是那個唱歌的男生，聲音特別雄厚，音色也很棒．我還在想，如果他參加了學校的唱歌比賽，我一定給他很不錯的分數，他的音色比那時的參賽者好得多．那時的參賽者根本沒有比較的份．但聽他的聲音，他是夠資格出唱片的了． 看了看，除了他的台風有些遜色之外，他的音色是很不錯的；除了舞蹈有點濫之外，他的歌曲演藝是很棒的． 想到，每個人都是公平的，有些人勝在外型；有些人勝在聰慧；有些人就有特別的才能．就沒有見過有那一個人是什麼都沒有的．所以啊，當你被人家罵笨時，不代表你是一無所有的，看看自己有沒有什麼過人的優點吧．

沒那麼簡單

久違的黃小琥再推出專輯, 聽著聽著,還覺得不錯的,唱著唱著,還把現代人的愛情模式給唱出來了.

黃小琥-沒那麼簡單

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴 尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛 總是不安 只好強悍 誰謀殺了我的浪漫 It's not so easy to find the best lover to talk to Especially after seeing so much betrayal incidents Always feeling disturbed hence pretending to be strong But my romance has been obliterate 沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看 變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半 不愛孤單 一久也習慣 不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管 It's not so easy to love without caring anything Being realistic may have its pros and cons Despite hating lonesome but getting used to it gradually There is no need to worry about and be interfered by someone 感覺快樂就忙東忙西 感覺累了就放空自己 別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定 不想擁有太多情緒 一杯紅酒配電影 在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡 Feeling happy, then be on the run Feeling tired, then relaxing oneself Don't care about others' words but but making decisions by oneself Don't like to be too emotional Watching movie with a glass of wine Turning off the mobile phone at Saturday night and lie in the sofa comfortably 相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷 什麼都不懂的年紀 曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經 想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶 It's not easy to love truly and deeply as everyone has their own tempers Having undergone the age of daydreaming Staying in a peaceful life rather than going through ups and downs It's not easy to obtain happiness So it's easy to make people indulge Showing the truest heart in the most innocent age Owning the greatest pleasure Missing someone is the most grievous But it's the deepest moving memory http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4_hhPM-6RU&feature=related

Derita Merindu

I was on my way back from my outstation in Penang. While tuning around the station to find a station with clear reception, this song was played in the air. There were many friends who don't like to listen to Malay radio station, as they are not able to appreciate the style, but perhaps this will help to change their perception to the Malay song. To me, this is definitely a great song, from the lyrics to the rhythm. So, have you changed your mind? Derita Merindu (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krQvliMY0JE)

(Rap) Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal Bagaimana nak kekal Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap) Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa Bagaimana hendak ku lupa bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu Jikalau setiap hari merindu Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia.. Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x) Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap) Seandainya kau berada di depan mata Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu Apalagi memandangku Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan.. Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap) Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu Baru kau tahu derita hatiku Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu Baru kau ingat derita diriku Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku Apa gunanya bahgia Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Another Sunday, Another Thought

Another Sunday that I have a little time to sit down, and listen to myself. It's been long time since the last time that I am sitting quietly, listening to me telling my story, and listen me talking about my life. While reading my blog, there was a comment posted by Vanessa Arias , that she mentioned that she worked in Headingley Experience too. What a coincidence! Although I may not be knowing her directly, but I feel excited, as we worked at a place that had given me so much sweet memories! Was attending Jenny's Wedding yesterday, and met Yap Ping, Hamster, Jessica, Nelsson, Miao, Wang Yi, Kie Wei, Ai Ling and Kyaw Moe Tun Naing there. Yap Ping asked, "when was the last time we met?" "8 years ago, at the airport, when I was about to leave for UK," I said. It was a long time since we last meet. Also, it was going to be a long time since I come home from UK. It's going to be 3 years in December. Just wondering, are the people in UK doing good now? How's Headingley Experience now? Cricket season is over by now, I think. Hope that the Leeds Rhino is still the best team in the country. It was 2003 when I first join Headingley Experience, if I am not mistaken. Starting as the back of house member, where I met the best supervisor (yes, still, in my ranking, the best supervisor), Jason. Then went to the front of house once or twice, and then work with Liz, my the other boss, which is really good to me too! November 2006 I filled my leave form, and was rather sad to see that I was going to leave the stadium for a long long time. Now there are many occasions that will reminds me of the life in the stadium, such as songs that always been played on the radio during the match nights, a western cusine that I see in Malaysia, crickets, rugbys, even seeing my students going to Leeds. Yeah, one day, one day I'll be standing at the stadium, and waiving my hand, saying "hello!" to everyone (perhaps "hello motto") to Jason. Hope you are doing good - People in BOH (Jason, Ian, Andy, Jan, Joe, Sam...), in the office (Liz, Shaun, Janice, Fiona, Julie, Ellie, Tony...) in the Kitchen (James Bradley, Steph, Phil, James Key, Jamie, Barney......) and in front of house (James Haigh, Andy, Feona, Louise, Phil, Lydia, Rob, Tom, Emma, Adam, Jon, Natalie, ....) and many many people who is still, or who was in Headingley Experience. credit of video: xXYuNPoOXx

玫瑰的回忆

从芙蓉活动回来，收音机播出了一首很久没有听到，又很喜欢的一首歌——the rose。 Bette Midler 先把这首歌唱红，然后台湾的齐豫和林忆莲也翻唱了这首歌，到最后Westlife 又再次把这首歌唱得冲上英国排行榜的榜首。还是喜欢Bette Mdiler 的版本，可能是先入为主的关系吧？ 对Westlife唱的版本印象比较深，因为当时我正收拾包袱准备回国，有时会与Nick 一起在星期天去郊游，然后再回家时，车上一定是播着Radio 1 的排行榜节目。就一直听，一直听，到我回到马来西亚为止。 喜欢这首歌的歌词，喜欢它那浪漫的旋律。

Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed Some say love it is a razer that leaves your soul to blead Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

像疯了一样

想知道你是否还是一样

有没有学会比较坚强

我快乐的孤独　

有失望

你可曾在意当时我也是这样的忧伤

想明白为何对我那么冷淡

有未来　故事会不会是这样

我知道你不会再回头看

我还是一直以为

一直以为有希望

像疯了一样

我想你就会心伤

我多么爱你

却难逃你的魔掌

像疯了一样

我想你就会心伤

你让我多么难堪

却还是一样把我伤

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blCLPebd-kE

Passera - It Will Pass

Listened to this song by Il Divo when I was in UK, and liked this song very much, although during that time I wasn't so sure about the meaning of the song.

While listening to this song today, happen to dig out the translation from the web. Nice song and nice lyrics!

Passera - It Will Pass

Songs are not written

but they are born by themselves

they represent the things that happen

everyday around us

songs, it's enough to catch them

there is one also for you

that have also difficulty in living

and you never smile.

songs are gipsy and steal poetry

they are deceptions like the so called "happiness pills"

songs never cure love or illness

but that little pain that give us the certainty we exist

it will pass, it will pass

if a boy and a guitar are there

like you, in the city

looking at this life which does not work

that kills us with illusions

and with the age of song

sit will pass over us

we'll go to the bank sooner or later

with our "why" and "who knows"and the anxiety of an extreme poverty

talking about the lovers you don't have

singing a song that you don't know

because you lost it inside

and you remember only

it will pass...in a world of cars and high speed

for the ones who arrive always last

for the ones who say good bye

for the ones who bump against the obstacles of diversity

songs are fireflies that sing in the dark

it will pass sooner or later

this little pain inside of you

inside of me, inside of us

that make us feel like sailors

at the mercy of wind and nostalgia

singing a song that you don't know

but that little pain

be it hate or be it love

it will pass, pass, pass

even if you'll sing just "la la la"

it will pass, it will pass

and a song will be useful for something

if your little pain

be it hate or be it love ...will pass

七月中的心情

最近还真的被手上的公务忙得透不过气来。 直到那个星期，一连几件事件，让我开始思考这个问题。 同事问我，你到底在忙什么？ 姐姐问我，忙是为了什么？ 朋友的毕业上，看到了一些自己隐约未完成的梦想…… 要说事业到了瓶颈嘛，又说不上来：一切还算顺利的。要说厌倦了我的工作，也不算是：还是很开心的教书嘛。 那天送了这首歌给N, 我想，也许这首歌也可以送给我自己吧——也许是我现在的写照： I can almost see it. That dream I'm dreamin But there's a voice inside my head saying you'll never reach it. Every step I'm taking. Every move I make feels Lost with no direction. My faith is shakin. But I,I gotta keep tryin. Gotta keep my head held high. 应该算是梦想成真了吧！但是就好像之前提到的，潜意识中好像还有一些，一些自己隐约未完成的梦想…… 但最近看到自己在事业上没有目的的忙碌，问了自己：我再忙什么，又却没有办法回答我这个问题。我想也许是行政的工作让我失去忙碌的意义，但我却不清楚。 只有继续努力，继续摸索，我要的画面也许很快就会出现。 There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waitin on the other side. It's the climb. 人生，就像闯关游戏，完成了一站的挑战，又有下一站的挑战等着我们；爬了一座高山，就会看到还有另一座高山等着我们。 姐姐说我也许达到了现阶段的成功，应该再望另一个方向发展。只是，我对现阶段成功的定义是什么? 一直闯了这么久，我是否已达到我要的山峰？感觉一切都太快了，感觉没有细细回味路旁的风景。很努力的在想，一路走来，我看到了什么？我学到了什么？我分享了什么？ The struggles I'm facing. The chances I'm taking. Sometimes might knock me down but No I'm not breaking. I may not know it but these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah. Just gotta keep going. And I, I gotta be strong. Just keep pushing on 'cause, 应该是时候回首来时路的时候了。要想一想，一路上，我看到了什么，我感受到了什么，我学习到了什么，我分享了什么。 应该把这些经典的时刻记录下来，整理整理，也许，我会看到，我接下来应该要走的路 There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waitin on the other side. It's the climb. 有人对我说，应该换个工作环境了。本地大学，又或其他在首都的学府都可以考虑考虑。 有人说，爬得那么辛苦，才爬到这份执政的工作，别那么轻易放弃，你还要在往上爬。 有时在想，换了环境，会不会好一点，也许爬上更高的山峰，我能学到更多，看到更多。 ************************************************** 结果，还是没有看出个结果来。 我想，现在的我，还真的是被工作淹没了我的初心，前方的路被现在的工作，办公室政治给模糊了。我想喘个气，却害怕排山倒海的工作将我淹没。 也许，卸下手上这份AHOP的任务后，我会看到，自己真正要什么，自己真正的在追求什么。 希望，到那个时候，我能真正回到自己最初执教的那种心情，把自己所拥有的，和我的学生分享。

Ready to be Part of the World's Best Cabin Crew Team?

Was attending N's graduation for MAS yesterday, and feel rather touched for this event. This is her dream, and, as an educator, I'm glad to see that she is graduating and now formally calling herself as cabin crew now. I do realise that this is not going to be easy, and to complete a training for cabin crew in just 60 days is a tough task for the trainees. However, I do feel that N has got her right job now, and I can see, from her eyes, that she has got what she dreamed for - just as how I felt when I first become the lecturer. She is excited to become part of the World's Best Cabin Crew team, and this is going to be starting of another journey to her. This is the journey to the new world that opens her eye to this colourful, wonderful world! This is a brand new start to her, and do hope that she will be excel in this area, just as what she is getting for during the ceremony - Best Results. Sharing with you - The Climb, which I think that describes your feeling now the best! I can almost see it That dream I am dreaming But there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it" Every step I'm taking Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking But I gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb The struggles I'm facing The chances I'm taking Sometimes might knock me down But no, I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah Just gotta keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on' Cause there's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb, yeah! Again my heartfelt congratulations to you and all the best!

给亲爱的K同学

亲爱的K同学： 今天GERRALD和我见了你之后，我的心就沉下了谷底，久久不能回复。 不是因为你的决定，是为了你未成熟的思想。 我看到了你看不到的你的未来，但你却不愿面对着一切， 因为你的固执。 你说，你要离开，因为你要离开，而你也已经作了决定，不会再更改。当问起你时，你却打不出一个所以来。为什么？ 不要你离开，因为你已经读了一半了，说不开心就离开，你以为你已解决了问题吗？你在这里遇到的问题，在其他地方一样会看到。省下一年的课程，难道没有办法完成吗？ 含糊下，你说班上没有人能和你合作。但你可否想过，是不是因为你的固执，其他人没有办法和你合作？有没有想过，是不是因为你的性格，别人没有办法看到你所要的？ 我没有问你，因为只到你的答案 -- 人的眼睛总是往外看，却看不到自己的样子。 你说要到南部读书，那里答应让你修读教育学士学位 - 我的天啊！我不是否定你在这方面的兴趣，但你的决定，是因为你要拿一张文凭罢了，有没有想过，当你拿到这张文凭时，你能做什么？你很确定你要做老师吗？ 你没有回答，良久，你说，你要当技术人员。听了，我差点晕倒。你所读的文凭根本每有办法当上技术人员！然后你说要读教育硕士 -- 我就更加晕眩了。 原来你已经迷糊成这个样子了。 你说，要半工半读，但你只有SPM的文凭。对不起，以这张文凭，使没有办法成为你所要的工程师。你说，可以做文员，等到那道教育文凭之后，在另寻出路。 告诉我，你能做什么？你答不上来，只回了我们一句：我已决定，请让我退学。 你说，你的朋友已经学士毕业，都在取笑你，因此你要离开-- 我没听错吧？因为这样，你要退学？我们不是和别人比赛，而是和自己不赛啊！就算你离开了，到了南部，还需要另外三到四年才能完成你要修的课目，这也不是一样吗？如果你留下来，在多一年就完成了。 你不觉得你这个想法很矛盾吗？你答不上来，还是回了我们一句：我已决定，请让我退学。 你说，不想让你父母花钱，但可否想过，如果你到了其他地方，你还是要花他们的钱，加上，以你的学历，以你在哪个地方的经验，以你可以做的事，以你要完成的教育看来，你是很难如愿的。还到不如完成这个文凭课程，然后再找一份工作，到时你的薪水怎样都回比你要做的工高很多。 你还是不语，指丢了一句：我已决定，请让我退学。 我不再说话，因为我这壶茶怎样由没有办法倒进你这个装满茶的茶杯。 也许，我是错的，没有看到你真正的一面，一直从我的角度来看你的决定。 也许，我是错的，没有支持你的决定，反而反对你所有的理由。 也许，我是错的，每有照着你喜欢的方式来对待你这个吃乱不吃硬的雪生。 我不能再说什么。再说，也是多余的。 但愿，有一天，你回头看一看今天，你会笑一笑说：哈，那是当年的我吗？

希望你回心转意的副系主任