Sunday, August 22, 2010

普照寺的回忆

那天回家,爸爸就说要到普照寺看看几位老人家,一家三口就浩浩荡荡的出发了——还是老样子,说走就走。记得还有一次妈妈曾向我们说过,“跟你爸爸出门,要告诉你们我们要到哪里都是没用的,因为他的主意随时会更改,要上了汽车,开始往那个方向出发时,我们才可以肯定我们是要到达那个目的地。”
也让我想到有一次爸爸说要带我们到波德申海边玩,当时在吉隆坡姐姐家的我们都很高兴,还把救生圈、海边旅行的必需品搬出来,还充了气。一开车,爸爸就建议先去拜访在鹅麦的大姨妈。好了,全家到了鹅麦,拜访了大姨妈, 这时,爸爸竟然说,既然都在这里了,不如我们上云顶吧!可以想象,那一次,全家人,带着去海边的玩具(更别提那些已经充气的救生圈),穿着到海边的衣服,到了云顶。自从那次起,每当爸爸说要到什么地方,我们都会尽量准备各式各样的物品,以防目的地突然间又被爸爸换了……
回到普照寺,看了看,改变了很多。主要的是后面那座停工了17年的建筑物在次的发出敲敲打打的建筑声。
看到一半,妈妈走过来了,说道:“很多东西都没有了。”
是啊!我都忘了,曾经有一个戏棚。 就在寺的左边。喏,看,就在那个蓝色桶的的那个位子。
那几年,应该是我还在念一、二年级时吧。每当十二月初八,就会有布袋戏,当爸爸妈妈在忙着时,我就会过去看。虽然不懂他们在演什么,但反正闲着也是闲着。后来,布袋戏没有了,就变成放桌椅的杂物室,后来,什么时候被拆除的,我也不知了。
看着另一边,妈妈又说话了。
“那棵菩提树不在了。”印象中好像有听过有棵菩提树,但是不记得了。
然后,妈妈又接着说,“那一年,我们就在那里摆了素宴,应该是为普照寺筹款吧。那天,刚下过雨,你就在那里玩泥巴,你爸爸就很生气的把你赶回家,你还自己坐巴士回家的,然后, 我们也没有想那么多,知道你在家里会自己主东西来吃,就没有管那么多。到了第二天,问到你吃什么,你就说‘吃面包啰’。我就说,你不会自己煮面吃吗?你就答了一句‘都没有么煤气,叫我怎样煮?’后来才发现你爸爸把家里的煤气都带出来了……”
走进里面,看到那个“池塘”已经被封掉了。
那时的我很喜欢在那里玩水——小孩子嘛。下雨时,就会看着屋顶的水流到这个水池里。
突然发觉,原来我的童年也是多姿多彩的。

Saturday, February 20, 2010

賀歲新春聯歡晚會

姊姊家附近的自願警衛隊在村里的小學開了一場賀歲新春聯歡晚會, 邀請了村里所有的居民觀看.   除了邀請到知名藝人來助興,籌委們也找到的贊助商來贊助這次的演出,而到場的村民都有機會嚐到好吃的沙爹、炒米粉、咖哩雞等美味的食物. 聯歡晚會開始的時間是傍晚7點,但村里的人過了7點才慢慢的從家中步行到學校的禮堂.華人對時間的觀念和拿捏,唉! 到了約8點,節目開始了. 一開始,就有了幾位從所謂的外地來助興的歌唱小組,跳了一支「歌劇魅影」 (The Phantom of the Opera)....一看就覺得好像少了什麼似的.細看之下,原來舞步節奏和音樂的節拍有些問題,歌曲是一支節奏很快的音樂〈當然也是「歌劇魅影」這支歌〉,但舞者的舞步卻是慢節奏的舞步... 然後,在看看他們的動作,就更加覺得他們沒有研究舞蹈的背景.提到「歌劇魅影」,大家都知道主角是面具──問題就出現在這裡.他們所用的面具是那種只把眼睛遮起來的那種(half mask),但大家都把面具“戴在”鼻子前面... 給人一種感覺怪怪加上不專業的感覺. 跳完了舞之後,就開始唱歌了.他們的歌聲也終於為他們挽回了少少顏面. 他們的聲色還真的是不錯,特別是那個唱歌的男生,聲音特別雄厚,音色也很棒.我還在想,如果他參加了學校的唱歌比賽,我一定給他很不錯的分數,他的音色比那時的參賽者好得多.那時的參賽者根本沒有比較的份.但聽他的聲音,他是夠資格出唱片的了. 看了看,除了他的台風有些遜色之外,他的音色是很不錯的;除了舞蹈有點濫之外,他的歌曲演藝是很棒的. 想到,每個人都是公平的,有些人勝在外型;有些人勝在聰慧;有些人就有特別的才能.就沒有見過有那一個人是什麼都沒有的.所以啊,當你被人家罵笨時,不代表你是一無所有的,看看自己有沒有什麼過人的優點吧.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

沒那麼簡單

久違的黃小琥再推出專輯, 聽著聽著,還覺得不錯的,唱著唱著,還把現代人的愛情模式給唱出來了.

黃小琥-沒那麼簡單

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴 尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛 總是不安 只好強悍 誰謀殺了我的浪漫 It's not so easy to find the best lover to talk to Especially after seeing so much betrayal incidents Always feeling disturbed hence pretending to be strong But my romance has been obliterate 沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看 變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半 不愛孤單 一久也習慣 不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管 It's not so easy to love without caring anything Being realistic may have its pros and cons Despite hating lonesome but getting used to it gradually There is no need to worry about and be interfered by someone 感覺快樂就忙東忙西 感覺累了就放空自己 別人說的話 隨便聽一聽 自己作決定 不想擁有太多情緒 一杯紅酒配電影 在周末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡 Feeling happy, then be on the run Feeling tired, then relaxing oneself Don't care about others' words but but making decisions by oneself Don't like to be too emotional Watching movie with a glass of wine Turning off the mobile phone at Saturday night and lie in the sofa comfortably 相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣 過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜 幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷 什麼都不懂的年紀 曾經最掏心 所以最開心 曾經 想念最傷心 但卻最動心 的記憶 It's not easy to love truly and deeply as everyone has their own tempers Having undergone the age of daydreaming Staying in a peaceful life rather than going through ups and downs It's not easy to obtain happiness So it's easy to make people indulge Showing the truest heart in the most innocent age Owning the greatest pleasure Missing someone is the most grievous But it's the deepest moving memory http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4_hhPM-6RU&feature=related

Monday, February 08, 2010

Derita Merindu

I was on my way back from my outstation in Penang. While tuning around the station to find a station with clear reception, this song was played in the air. There were many friends who don't like to listen to Malay radio station, as they are not able to appreciate the style, but perhaps this will help to change their perception to the Malay song. To me, this is definitely a great song, from the lyrics to the rhythm. So, have you changed your mind? Derita Merindu (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krQvliMY0JE)

(Rap) Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal Bagaimana nak kekal Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap) Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa Bagaimana hendak ku lupa bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu Jikalau setiap hari merindu Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia.. Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

(Ulang) (2x) Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

(Rap) Seandainya kau berada di depan mata Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu Apalagi memandangku Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan.. Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

(Rap) Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu Baru kau tahu derita hatiku Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu Baru kau ingat derita diriku Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku Apa gunanya bahgia Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa Kaulah bahagia (bagiku) Kaulah derita (bagimu) Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Another Sunday, Another Thought

Another Sunday that I have a little time to sit down, and listen to myself. It's been long time since the last time that I am sitting quietly, listening to me telling my story, and listen me talking about my life. While reading my blog, there was a comment posted by Vanessa Arias , that she mentioned that she worked in Headingley Experience too. What a coincidence! Although I may not be knowing her directly, but I feel excited, as we worked at a place that had given me so much sweet memories! Was attending Jenny's Wedding yesterday, and met Yap Ping, Hamster, Jessica, Nelsson, Miao, Wang Yi, Kie Wei, Ai Ling and Kyaw Moe Tun Naing there. Yap Ping asked, "when was the last time we met?" "8 years ago, at the airport, when I was about to leave for UK," I said. It was a long time since we last meet. Also, it was going to be a long time since I come home from UK. It's going to be 3 years in December. Just wondering, are the people in UK doing good now? How's Headingley Experience now? Cricket season is over by now, I think. Hope that the Leeds Rhino is still the best team in the country. It was 2003 when I first join Headingley Experience, if I am not mistaken. Starting as the back of house member, where I met the best supervisor (yes, still, in my ranking, the best supervisor), Jason. Then went to the front of house once or twice, and then work with Liz, my the other boss, which is really good to me too! November 2006 I filled my leave form, and was rather sad to see that I was going to leave the stadium for a long long time. Now there are many occasions that will reminds me of the life in the stadium, such as songs that always been played on the radio during the match nights, a western cusine that I see in Malaysia, crickets, rugbys, even seeing my students going to Leeds. Yeah, one day, one day I'll be standing at the stadium, and waiving my hand, saying "hello!" to everyone (perhaps "hello motto") to Jason. Hope you are doing good - People in BOH (Jason, Ian, Andy, Jan, Joe, Sam...), in the office (Liz, Shaun, Janice, Fiona, Julie, Ellie, Tony...) in the Kitchen (James Bradley, Steph, Phil, James Key, Jamie, Barney......) and in front of house (James Haigh, Andy, Feona, Louise, Phil, Lydia, Rob, Tom, Emma, Adam, Jon, Natalie, ....) and many many people who is still, or who was in Headingley Experience. credit of video: xXYuNPoOXx

Friday, September 25, 2009

玫瑰的回忆

从芙蓉活动回来,收音机播出了一首很久没有听到,又很喜欢的一首歌——the rose。 Bette Midler 先把这首歌唱红,然后台湾的齐豫和林忆莲也翻唱了这首歌,到最后Westlife 又再次把这首歌唱得冲上英国排行榜的榜首。还是喜欢Bette Mdiler 的版本,可能是先入为主的关系吧? 对Westlife唱的版本印象比较深,因为当时我正收拾包袱准备回国,有时会与Nick 一起在星期天去郊游,然后再回家时,车上一定是播着Radio 1 的排行榜节目。就一直听,一直听,到我回到马来西亚为止。 喜欢这首歌的歌词,喜欢它那浪漫的旋律。
Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed Some say love it is a razer that leaves your soul to blead Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

Thursday, July 30, 2009

像疯了一样

想知道你是否还是一样
有没有学会比较坚强
我快乐的孤独 
有失望
你可曾在意当时我也是这样的忧伤
想明白为何对我那么冷淡
有未来 故事会不会是这样
我知道你不会再回头看
我还是一直以为
一直以为有希望
像疯了一样
我想你就会心伤
我多么爱你
却难逃你的魔掌
像疯了一样
我想你就会心伤
你让我多么难堪
却还是一样把我伤

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blCLPebd-kE

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Passera - It Will Pass

Listened to this song by Il Divo when I was in UK, and liked this song very much, although during that time I wasn't so sure about the meaning of the song.
While listening to this song today, happen to dig out the translation from the web. Nice song and nice lyrics!
Passera - It Will Pass
Songs are not written
but they are born by themselves
they represent the things that happen
everyday around us
songs, it's enough to catch them
there is one also for you
that have also difficulty in living
and you never smile.
songs are gipsy and steal poetry
they are deceptions like the so called "happiness pills"
songs never cure love or illness
but that little pain that give us the certainty we exist
it will pass, it will pass
if a boy and a guitar are there
like you, in the city
looking at this life which does not work
that kills us with illusions
and with the age of song
sit will pass over us
we'll go to the bank sooner or later
with our "why" and "who knows"and the anxiety of an extreme poverty
talking about the lovers you don't have
singing a song that you don't know
because you lost it inside
and you remember only
it will pass...in a world of cars and high speed
for the ones who arrive always last
for the ones who say good bye
for the ones who bump against the obstacles of diversity
songs are fireflies that sing in the dark
it will pass sooner or later
this little pain inside of you
inside of me, inside of us
that make us feel like sailors
at the mercy of wind and nostalgia
singing a song that you don't know
but that little pain
be it hate or be it love
it will pass, pass, pass
even if you'll sing just "la la la"
it will pass, it will pass
and a song will be useful for something
if your little pain
be it hate or be it love ...will pass

Monday, July 20, 2009

七月中的心情

最近还真的被手上的公务忙得透不过气来。 直到那个星期,一连几件事件,让我开始思考这个问题。 同事问我,你到底在忙什么? 姐姐问我,忙是为了什么? 朋友的毕业上,看到了一些自己隐约未完成的梦想…… 要说事业到了瓶颈嘛,又说不上来:一切还算顺利的。要说厌倦了我的工作,也不算是:还是很开心的教书嘛。 那天送了这首歌给N, 我想,也许这首歌也可以送给我自己吧——也许是我现在的写照: I can almost see it. That dream I'm dreamin But there's a voice inside my head saying you'll never reach it. Every step I'm taking. Every move I make feels Lost with no direction. My faith is shakin. But I,I gotta keep tryin. Gotta keep my head held high. 应该算是梦想成真了吧!但是就好像之前提到的,潜意识中好像还有一些,一些自己隐约未完成的梦想…… 但最近看到自己在事业上没有目的的忙碌,问了自己:我再忙什么,又却没有办法回答我这个问题。我想也许是行政的工作让我失去忙碌的意义,但我却不清楚。 只有继续努力,继续摸索,我要的画面也许很快就会出现。 There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waitin on the other side. It's the climb. 人生,就像闯关游戏,完成了一站的挑战,又有下一站的挑战等着我们;爬了一座高山,就会看到还有另一座高山等着我们。 姐姐说我也许达到了现阶段的成功,应该再望另一个方向发展。只是,我对现阶段成功的定义是什么? 一直闯了这么久,我是否已达到我要的山峰?感觉一切都太快了,感觉没有细细回味路旁的风景。很努力的在想,一路走来,我看到了什么?我学到了什么?我分享了什么? The struggles I'm facing. The chances I'm taking. Sometimes might knock me down but No I'm not breaking. I may not know it but these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah. Just gotta keep going. And I, I gotta be strong. Just keep pushing on 'cause, 应该是时候回首来时路的时候了。要想一想,一路上,我看到了什么,我感受到了什么,我学习到了什么,我分享了什么。 应该把这些经典的时刻记录下来,整理整理,也许,我会看到,我接下来应该要走的路 There's always gonna be another mountain. I'm always gonna wanna make it move. Always gonna be an uphill battle But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose. Ain't about how fast I get there. Ain't about what's waitin on the other side. It's the climb. 有人对我说,应该换个工作环境了。本地大学,又或其他在首都的学府都可以考虑考虑。 有人说,爬得那么辛苦,才爬到这份执政的工作,别那么轻易放弃,你还要在往上爬。 有时在想,换了环境,会不会好一点,也许爬上更高的山峰,我能学到更多,看到更多。 ************************************************** 结果,还是没有看出个结果来。 我想,现在的我,还真的是被工作淹没了我的初心,前方的路被现在的工作,办公室政治给模糊了。我想喘个气,却害怕排山倒海的工作将我淹没。 也许,卸下手上这份AHOP的任务后,我会看到,自己真正要什么,自己真正的在追求什么。 希望,到那个时候,我能真正回到自己最初执教的那种心情,把自己所拥有的,和我的学生分享。

Friday, July 10, 2009

Ready to be Part of the World's Best Cabin Crew Team?

Was attending N's graduation for MAS yesterday, and feel rather touched for this event. This is her dream, and, as an educator, I'm glad to see that she is graduating and now formally calling herself as cabin crew now. I do realise that this is not going to be easy, and to complete a training for cabin crew in just 60 days is a tough task for the trainees. However, I do feel that N has got her right job now, and I can see, from her eyes, that she has got what she dreamed for - just as how I felt when I first become the lecturer. She is excited to become part of the World's Best Cabin Crew team, and this is going to be starting of another journey to her. This is the journey to the new world that opens her eye to this colourful, wonderful world! This is a brand new start to her, and do hope that she will be excel in this area, just as what she is getting for during the ceremony - Best Results. Sharing with you - The Climb, which I think that describes your feeling now the best! I can almost see it That dream I am dreaming But there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it" Every step I'm taking Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking But I gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb The struggles I'm facing The chances I'm taking Sometimes might knock me down But no, I'm not breaking I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah Just gotta keep going And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on' Cause there's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb, yeah! Again my heartfelt congratulations to you and all the best!